I was fortunate enough this week to spend an hour having coffee with an old friend I have not seen for almost three years. A very dear friend seen for far too short a time. He asked, as people tend to do, what’s happening with Chocolates on My Pillow. It’s been so long and everyone is curious and I find I have to start committing myself to something. The truth is I fall in and out of love with it. Last time I was editing I loved it, this morning I was not so sure. It’s time to hand it over to my beta reading friends and just wait for the skies to fall in. The truth is I don’t have the money to have it edited professionally at the moment (an absolute MUST if you self-publish, don’t let anyone tell you differently), so part of me is probably unwilling to finish something that will have to sit on a (metaphorical) shelf for a while. The only way out of this dilemma is, of course, to keep writing and let fresh pairs of eyes see what they will make of it. At some point you get so close to your story that you can’t see the wood for the trees.
Our brief coffee (yes, for us an hour over coffee is brief) also got me thinking about my blog. I still haven’t found the perfect rhythm since I fell out of my daily blogging routine, and when he told me how my book is on all his devices I figured out why. When I decided to focus on blogging and not on writing, it was in the hope that people would enjoy my writing and decide to buy my book. That didn’t really happen, and either I hoped for too much too soon or I had the wrong approach. Maybe next time I’ll try free chocolates with every purchase. Hmmm…
Two nights ago I was invited to the Danish E-commerce Awards. It was a very inspiring evening, particularly when one of the major awards was taken by a nineteen-year-old high school student who runs an online swimwear shop. He went on stage with his father to accept (his mother was at home manning customer service for the evening) and his voice broke with gratitude when eight hundred business people got to their feet and gave him a standing ovation.
I miss e-commerce. I miss selling something, seeing something that I have helped build grow bigger and stronger. That was something I was hoping to achieve for my book with this blog. I achieved it for the blog, but not for the book. So there’s something in there I have to rethink. Mainly what the heck is going on my Amazon campaigns which have now ground to a complete halt.
While I figure that out, I’ll go back to writing.
It’s what I do.